It seriously was one of those days. You know, the days where 5 o'clock comes around and you are still wearing your bathrobe over your clothes, the house is a disaster (and it looked beautiful this morning when you first woke up), you have no idea what to prepare for dinner, and you wrack your brain trying to figure out what you actually did today. You know, one of those days.
I've spent most of today throwing up. Olivia and I did paint- and then spend just as much time washing up all the paint. We also went biking- and then had hot chocolate afterwards because it did snow today. Yet, sometimes I look around and it seems that everyone around me is leading a bigger, grander life than I am. It feels like I don't have much to show for who I want to be and who I am.
Last night, I was trying to teach Olivia (she will be 3 years old in May) about Easter. She was asking all sorts of questions about the Savior's crucifixion and resurrection. I summed it all up by telling her that we needed to be like Jesus. She looked up at me and said, "Mommy, I want to be like you and Jesus."
Definitely a 'melt-my-heart' moment.
My girls are my life now. My family is my focus. I may not be where I thought I would be when I started planning out my life oh-so-long-ago (those of you who've known me the longest are nodding your heads), but this is where I am now. And even though it is 8:48 p.m. and I am still wearing my bathrobe over my clothes, it is ok. My husband adores me (heaven only knows why...seriously!) and my daughters think I am the best cook, coolest dancer, fastest runner, most creative, amazing singer, fantastic reader, funnest and lovingest and besterestest mother ever! And you know what? To them, I absolutely am.
I totally feel like this! I look at people I know, and the trips they can take, the marathons they run, the NEAT houses they have (usually these friends don't have children!) and I look at my life and think 'this is what I wanted?' Then Troy comes and gives me a hug and tells me he loves me. . . . . I wouldn't trade it for anything! We're living the life!
ReplyDeleteAmen sista! Sometimes I sit back and look at myself and I think, "What am I doing with three kids?....I'm not good at this!" Then at night when all the kids are put to bed- I take a deep breath in....then out....and think how grateful I am for my life even though it's not all hunkie-dorie.
ReplyDeleteI love this article from the Washington Post:
http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2007/05/22/AR2007052201554.html
Amy,
ReplyDeleteYou are wonderful. I love how honest you are. We want to be like you and Jesus too. I love you.
Lisa
I'm so glad I know where to find you now!! I'm loving reading your posts, your girls are absolutely darling and you're so gorgeous it kills me!! I'm so glad that everyone is doing so well.
ReplyDeleteI love this post, because it very adequately sums up exactly how I feel on certain days. My girls and my husband are everything to me, and I find that even though sometime I wish for more excitement, or adventure, or time to myself, or whatever it is, at the end of the day, I love my life. Absolutely wouldn't trade it for the world, and being a momma is the most rewarding thing I believe I could ever do with my life. Thanks for the reminder! ;)
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